Grand Pa the kind loving figure,who always has a gift for you,cuddles you,tells you these amazing stories whilst sitting on his lap.Smells a bit funny but always feels safe in his arms.I remember my Grand dad,always felt protected around him he could even defend me against my parents and they listened it was great.A certain familiarity,able to shape him and perhaps manipulate him a bit with a smile.
Recently a post caught my eye in passing and I was engaged .Now this was a writer who wears their heart on their sleeve,more like myself probably why I was attracted to their content in the first place.The more I read the more I related to them,what was interesting though was how they had managed to twist the image of God to fit around a fix for the troubles they faced.It was apparent they wanted to have things their way and when that didn’t go the way they thought excuses were made for God as to why he didn’t meet their expectations , Scriptures were quoted out of context to fit the results hoped for.
I mean this thing read like a blueprint for God to follow in fixing the challenges of their life.
Then I had a Luke 15v20 And when he came to himself…… I had a moment of truth
Beating the Pharisees at their own righteousness game: Matt 5 v 20 For I say unto you, That except your righteousness shall exceed the righteousness of the scribes and Pharisees, ye shall in no case enter into the kingdom of heaven.
I was ashamed of myself at how judgemental I was and how self righteous I had been.My perfect self, roaming around passing judgement on others,how dare I?Then I read some of my own writing and oh boy that did it.It was time to confess. I was being hypocritical.
Later on I started to think, I mean really think, on how I react to my own trials,it was a time to have a sit down with my black handsome self and have a little chat.
In my trials I went from being SELF RIGHTEOUS which then gave me a sense of SELF ENTITLEMENT which only served to get me into the WILDERNESS and the length of time in this dry place promoted my PRIDE and in the end after not getting my way and what I wanted, I was just angry,angry,angry ANGER.
In Steps my:
SELF RIGHTEOUSNESS:My judgement of others led me to believe that I was somehow better than others.After all I never put God in a box,I am strong,a lesser man would have blown his brains up,look at this fella crying here if he only knew what I am up under in here,I am still worshipping in the midst of my trial really Limbiley? I mean really?
SELF ENTITLEMENT:My established notion of being “better” made me special right off,so I am owed something,meaning I could pick and choose the blessings I want after all I am better and owed something,a reward is due to me for being good, mmmhhhh!!!! But God don’t owe you nothing( excuse the lingo).
THE WILDERNESS: Imagine my surprise when ended up in here,oh the dryness,the heat,the vultures picking at my beat up flesh,thorns on my sides,oh ya all don’t know what am talking about.This was the bareness of trying to do things my way and the symbol of the desert like condition of my soul.A complete reflection and oh did it mirror my state of affairs.
IN A PROUD STATE:
my refusal to be apologetic
my refusal to be humble
my refusal to be ashamed of my failed self efforts
my refusal to take responsibility of such failed efforts (it wasn’t me)
my refusal to see what I was doing wrong.
THEN THE ANGER: The result of the proud person in me not getting the thing they wanted,not getting my way.I must have thought I was Sinatra.Now I am just mad and bitter.
I believe most of us go through these stages in our lives,when we think God ought come and pull us out,and why has he allowed this to happen?oh Bless me Lord!!fix my husband Jesus,I put this boss of mine in your hands heavenly father,God!!!!I bless my enemies!!! really saints? I mean really?Foaming at the mouth and throwing fits,all up in tears all emotional,hear my cry oh Jehovah!!!!
The trouble with us believers is believing that OUR TROUBLES OBLIGATE GOD when they in fact do not.
That’s right YOUR TROUBLE DOES NOT OBLIGATE GOD.Now he will get you out but you got to recognize its all because of JESUS and God’s GRACE (john 1v15-17) .Its through God’s GRACE that anything good happens to us.We live in an evil world full of evil things and evil situations inhabited by people that do evil.Evil is all around us. Eph 5v15-16 Look carefully then how you walk, not as unwise but as wise, making the best use of the time, because the days are evil.
By GRACE you were saved through faith,not by your works,undeserved & unmerited, not your doing Eph 2v8.
By GRACE you are able to cry to God and make your petitions known through prayer.
By GRACE you are able to do great signs and wonders like Stephen in Acts 6v8.
By GRACE you are strengthened in your weakness.It is when his power is made perfect in weakness 2 cor 2v8-9.
I could go on.This is the right dose of reality and truth needed for our approach to God for a fruitful 2014.Just what the Doctor ordered.Get what you really need and not what you want.Get wisdom and in your getting get understanding.Live stress free and content and have confidence in approaching God the right way.Most of all have the proper attitude and reverence.
Let us then with confidence draw near to the throne of grace, that we may receive mercy and find grace to help in time of need. Heb 4v16
Just Remember GOD AIN’T YOUR GRAND DADDY.