Too scared to pray

FEAR:- False Evidence Appearing Rear”-some wise guy-

Today it happened,I was Too scared to pray perhaps I am just tired of all these attacks and mishappenings or perhaps it’s just that every-time I get into prayer deeply then the devil shows up.

Curious then that during my wild days of partying,poker,brandy and cigars it all worked out.

One drove home drunk as a skunk and never once scratched his M3 or the powerful 420d

In any case it would seem that the minute I changed allegiances,afflictions followed.

Now am not scared just tired,see when u operate in your calling opposition comes but then so does provision.I just wonder now considering what I ve gone through,I see a way out, but then it’s not

Not the way The Lord has made,…No this is ME Limbiley.

See Jacob sceemed lied and got his own way ….he was a schemer,a con artist, he could lie, ” sounds like all men I know”

I too wrested with angels
I too painted the herd striped spotted
I too have been there,so I am Jacob

Besides if I had a hairy brother who would sell me his birthright for soup…..then u knw……

In any case I fear praying coz the bad has happened in the last few years just after I prayed,

Coz evil manifests better and quicker than the good and the holy,

So now am too scared to pray

Yet in my heart am still a Schemer and I ll negotiate myself out of this calamity coz all I know to do is this “survive or die”

So I will ……but now, I will won’t Die,and I won’t be scared,coz I change my mind.
Since I must live ….I will live and when I do live….

I will pray

And I ain’t

Too scared to pray anymore

And when I get up you gonna wish u killed me when u had the chance devil.

Coz now

I ain’t :-

Too scared to pray

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10 thoughts on “Too scared to pray

  1. Thanks so much for sharing this. Indeed, more and more I am finding when I am talking deeply with the Lord it’s like some curtain gets thrown up around me, like I can’t even see Him….Who am I talking too, God are you even there…? But I know it’s a lie, and on a good day Ill call it so, and if it will be a thorn in my flesh, then EVEN THAT has a purpose….being uncertain of some things can keep us humble and kind to one another, and that’s how God is with us. Keep pressing on. Love from Holland,
    Jasmine
    *ps, love F.E.A.R–and small note, you wrote “rear” instead of “real” which is maybe the word intended, however, even in “rear” I see it like when your driving and you see something chasing you in the rearview mirror. Keep your eyes straight ahead on Jesus.

  2. I am so glad you are no longer too scared to pray.

    “4 Rejoice in the Lord always; again I will say, rejoice. 5 Let your reasonableness be known to everyone. The Lord is at hand; 6 do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. 7 And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:4-7

    Blessings,
    Theresa

  3. In and of Christ of course. We have no power in and of ourselves, but in Him we can do all things through Christ who strengthens us!

  4. It helps me to put it in this prospective. he bites our heel and we crush his head. Praying for you, brother! would appreciate the same!

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